Human Obsession With History

The obsession with history has become a hindrance to humans.   You may ask how this can be. Isn't where we come from important information to have in order to understand ourselves?  What does this question mean?  "Where do we come from?" You have been told that history will reveal to you, who you are and … Continue reading Human Obsession With History

Born Crazy: A Video Poem

"You're crazy." How often have you heard this phrase thrown around, either flippantly, in jest or to victim blame someone who has overcome or is recovering from abuse? I heard this often as a post-cult teenager and well into my adult years. While I was actually dealing with the behavioral aftermath of being an extremely … Continue reading Born Crazy: A Video Poem

Why “Push Through” Can Be An Illusion

A few months ago my twenty-one year old son and his friends invited me to go hiking. "Oh, hell yes!" I responded with excitment. Nature is one of my many loves. I rubbed my hands together gleefully. How cool these youngsters want an oldie but goodie like me along. "Now, mom," my son advised, "this … Continue reading Why “Push Through” Can Be An Illusion

The Kidnapped Baby

I am at a house. Rocco is here with my sister.  They seem to be a couple.  There is some kind of reunion happening somewhere in another state, and we are all preparing to fly there. I have been put in charge of transporting another couple's small baby to that city.  I seemed to have agreed to … Continue reading The Kidnapped Baby

The Sadists Come Like Lightening Bolts

"The sadists come like lightening bolts, Sila!" Madge exclaims, a warning glistening from her eyes. "Shut the fuck up, Madge." Maude orders. "Leave her alone." But Sila knows. They are like lightening bolts, and they will flood her with their electricity, then leave her depleted. They will strip her skin, extract her emotions and bottle her … Continue reading The Sadists Come Like Lightening Bolts

“Victim Speaks Out, While Cult Leader Awaits Trial”

"Told in a restrained but highly effective style, reminiscent of Kazuo Ishiguro’s brilliantly understated bestseller "Never Let Me Go", "Cult Child" provides frightening insights into the methods and after-effects of religious coercion. Her fortress is no bigger than the space between her ears; but through quiet internal resistance, Sila halts her opponents and outlasts their … Continue reading “Victim Speaks Out, While Cult Leader Awaits Trial”

Patriarchy Survivor: Survival After the Suffering

Testimony by Vennie Kocsis My abuse story is not “typical”, although who is to say that any abuse is typical. My story is a bit different because I am a survivor of ritualistic cult abuse. I share my experiences openly with the intent of connecting with others who have been abused. It’s important to me that … Continue reading Patriarchy Survivor: Survival After the Suffering

***Trigger Warning*** “The Maria Beating” Cult Child excerpt

     Mama leaves very early one morning to go to town. She lectures me the night before she leaves that I have to listen to Leis until she comes back. Mama says Leis is old enough to watch me, and that I am old enough to know how to act right. Mama tells Leis … Continue reading ***Trigger Warning*** “The Maria Beating” Cult Child excerpt