Art is a process of immersion and re-emerging.
"We can love, we can hate, and even kill, with the choice we decide to make with those cells. That choice still resides within the single individual."
Sexual abuse, trauma; Leaves physical scars Too deep to ever leave.
I am nobody. Nobody is perfect. Therefore I am perfect.
“You see, I’ve never loved my body, but not because my body isn’t lovable. It’s that the natural urge to love myself in any way was taken from me by abusive adults.” Vennie Kocsis
At 1379 Milepost, Delta Junction, Alaska, is a religious commune with a history of horror.
When the victims of cults speak out, they are often met with a barrage of attacks by either current cult members or ex-cult member apologists. How the victim responds matters.
There's a duality existing when what we long for finally arrives. In that moment we are tasked with facing it. Now, I am going back inside. I am choosing this journey. While still somewhat tired from writing "Cult Child", I want to keep myself surfing this wave lest it all disappear. As I am writing … Continue reading A Poster Child for Shame
I never felt like I belonged to my family. I lived their dynamic hovering on the outside looking in. Mom and sister always seemed to have secrets between them that I never seemed good enough to know. I didn't feel included or chosen. I was often told to go away, things were none of my … Continue reading Odd Girl Out
Who do I see when I look at me; sometimes frightened, sometimes angry, most times free? Who holds the strings to the time line, the shadowed path behind, the one I glance, hoping for a chance to see what is missing? This is a journey I opted to take slowly, unraveling, revealing the truth of … Continue reading It’s Not Done Until I Say It’s Done
Dear Counsel, Again? Ah, I'm trying real hard not to be irritated with you all. I tire of writing to you like I'm some child, although I very much enjoy writing. Just not for this purpose. As you know, I am writing an edgy, sensuous book. So I say this. I know, Vennie, you are … Continue reading Dear Counsel, I’m Writing To You Again