A Childhood Near Death Experience

March 21, 2022April 3, 2022 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ 2 Comments

This passage from my memoir "Cult Child" discusses a near-death experience I had when I was five years old.

It Starts Inside

August 6, 2021 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ 2 Comments

We trauma survivors can have a little habit. Avoidance. I know. I’ve been there. For many years I burrowed myself into every other person and/or project that distracted my mind away from myself. I was so frightened by what I had to face in myself; the pain, the anger, the memories of a tortured childhood, … Continue reading It Starts Inside

Grieving Through the Body

June 27, 2021June 28, 2021 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ Leave a comment

I know grieving is for the ones left behind, but I gotta get the pain out, bro and right now, I can only cry it out like I used to, pouring it out in small novella text convos.

Healing Yourself Heals the World

June 13, 2020January 22, 2021 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ Leave a comment

I used to harbor a lot of hate toward my mother. Let me tell you something. Hate only hurts yourself and others. It is not a shield. It comes with no solutions. It is fueled by anger and should only be felt righteously; such as HATING child rapists. In my mind the only perspective I … Continue reading Healing Yourself Heals the World

The Eye Of the Mother

January 5, 2020January 8, 2020 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ 1 Comment

This past decade has been filled with many turns in the bumpy road I have traveled. I have pushed through deep depressions and sad realizations about this human existence. I have absorbed and grown my mindfulness and ability to receive and give love. I have waded through dissociative disorder peaks, organizing the many compartments of … Continue reading The Eye Of the Mother

2.0.1.9 Outro

December 7, 2019December 7, 2019 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ 1 Comment

I have dissected new sections of pain which remain in the hidden spaces of my brain.

Skeletons Remain

November 16, 2019 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ Leave a comment

Skeletons remain in the spaces beneath the pain. My brain becomes a seismograph of moving timelines and opportunities to rewind. I enter the dark caverns armed. This is no place for charm or niceties. This is a war to be fought by a single army. I am one with what was formed. I go quiet … Continue reading Skeletons Remain

With Un-Shattered Mind

June 24, 2019February 4, 2022 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ 1 Comment

With Un-Shattered Minds We Will Rewind

Victim To Survivor To Thriver: You Will Do It!

January 9, 2019January 8, 2020 ~ Vennie Kocsis ~ 1 Comment

As I have lived my own survivorship and spent the last few years deeply connecting with trauma survivors, I see three distinct phases of the journey. Victim | Survivor | Thriver (and for some, Advocacy/Warriorship) I think one of the most difficult breaks in the healing process is moving from the victim to survivor state. … Continue reading Victim To Survivor To Thriver: You Will Do It!