Marilyn Monroe / Monarch Program Poetry

The Surgeon Story is a text written in poem form by Monroe where she describes being cut open by Lee Strasberg and her psychiatrist Margaret Hohenberg. While some describe this story as Marilyn’s recollection of a nightmare, other researchers claim that it is actually a description of a mind control session. Best finest surgeon—Strasberg to … Continue reading Marilyn Monroe / Monarch Program Poetry

When Abuse Is a Child’s Normal

**trigger warning: abuse description** If there had been a safe place for me as a child, what would I have said? I didn't know sexual abuse was wrong. I only knew it caused me physical pain and made me want to hide away. It sent me far from this earth place, to other dimensions, so … Continue reading When Abuse Is a Child’s Normal

Death Is Not Permanent 

"Are you afraid?" Someone asked me today. "People die for the truth, yanno." Death. If this is the only thing to fear then, no, I am not afraid.  For me, death is never permanent.  There are little echoes of programming that come in as subtle, cynical whispers. "No one really... Gives a shit." and so … Continue reading Death Is Not Permanent 

The Solitary Empath

You might be a tsunami or you could be the raft to safety. There are phrases, trigger situations that make her step back. She finds balance with the sea and forest. Rarely with other humans. So often taken personally, she is sometimes shy and many times wary. She knows what she carries; what she protects. … Continue reading The Solitary Empath

The Three Black Hats

I am on an air mattress.  It is covered in a cotton sheet.  I am stretched out on my back beneath a soft fleece blanket. I am in the end room of a double wide trailer.  The trailer is nestled in a quiet neighborhood which is dense with trees.  There are no traffic sounds.  I … Continue reading The Three Black Hats

Sometimes We Hurt People

States of being aren't an excuse. They're just a mere explanation. I don't use mere to minimize them. I use it to not minimize the pain that alter states of being can cause. See, here's the thing about triggers. They create reactions. Immediately. No thinking, just conditioned movement, even if that conditioning is self centered. … Continue reading Sometimes We Hurt People

Birth of a Monarch

"Birth of a Monarch" mixed media acrylic and paper on canvas. 24x24 From the darkness grew a seed, whose life began in the blood red hands of the abusers who froze her heart. The black butterflies represent the Monarch programming style use of abuse methods used by the Ministers who ran the cult I grew … Continue reading Birth of a Monarch