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I have always been a wanderer, a traveler, even at times, a runner, from situations I couldn't handle.

“Dead, Insane or In Jail: A CEDU Memoir” by Zack Bonnie

 "Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past." Lily Tomlin Accented with unique and relevant art by Jonathan Weiner of San Francisco, CA,"Dead Insane or In Jail: A CEDU Memoir", by Zack Bonnie, reveals with precision the mind bending abuse enacted inside of the youth reform industry. "The Cult That Spawned the Tough-Love Teen Industry", … Continue reading “Dead, Insane or In Jail: A CEDU Memoir” by Zack Bonnie

If We Have Rules Are We Free?

The first time I wore a two piece bathing suit I was fourteen years old. I recall the nakedness my stomach felt as it met sun and warmth. My skin tingled. I was shy. Yet, the more I fed my body with the light of the sun's reflection, the more I embraced its glow. I … Continue reading If We Have Rules Are We Free?

Born Crazy: A Video Poem

"You're crazy." How often have you heard this phrase thrown around, either flippantly, in jest or to victim blame someone who has overcome or is recovering from abuse? I heard this often as a post-cult teenager and well into my adult years. While I was actually dealing with the behavioral aftermath of being an extremely … Continue reading Born Crazy: A Video Poem

Hourglass

There's a faded line Between reality and time I Catch myself remembering rejection Straddling a log fence watching Them play and laugh and shout Odd girl out Too loud I used to be an expert at stilts Stride the mud like a queen I could do anything If I just believed but I never prayed hard enough to Make God real and It would be a version of Drop Dead Fred who Emerged the memories in my head Read more...

When Writing Out Trauma Is Crippling

A wise person once said, "There are three things you should never share; your relationship, your finances and your next move." It has become a mantra for my life.   Years of being both vulnerable and held back at the wrong times have left me speculating my own judgment.  Being alone is safer, away from the … Continue reading When Writing Out Trauma Is Crippling

What Happens To Good, Non-Religious People When They Die?

I asked a religious man once what happens when someone is a really good person, never hurts anyone, is kind and giving, but they don't believe in God? What happens to them when they die? Although I knew what the answer would most likely be, based on my own knowledge of religious doctrine, I was … Continue reading What Happens To Good, Non-Religious People When They Die?

Cults and Cult Apologists Who Gang Stalk

Gang stalking (also known as “organized stalking”) "is the covert organized surveillance and harassment of a targeted individual by multiple perpetrators. The goal is to systematically isolate and harass the victim using tactics whose cumulative effects amount to psychological torture." Tactics include: * Flooding your book/website/online presence with negative comments to drive down the ratings … Continue reading Cults and Cult Apologists Who Gang Stalk

She Borrowed Cult Child From a Friend

By Tricia M  I actually borrowed this book from one of my friends. I have always been fascinated with these types of stories because they just seem so surreal. Anyway, it was on my friend's coffee table and I sat down and began to read, I was Immediately engrossed. This book is told in the … Continue reading She Borrowed Cult Child From a Friend