Night terrors. They always come to me in the waking hours as I move from REM to lucid. They are like earthquakes that hit in the night, leaving the day shaken up. This one brought a sadness that sat inside a lump in my throat all day.
There I am walking down a hallway toward a public restroom. It feels like I may be in a mall. The hallway is shaped like an L, with the smaller part being the entrance, then the hallway, with first the men’s door to the left, then the woman’s door at the end.
There is a man walking down the hallway behind me. I can see him, even though I have not turned my head. He appears quite a distance and average in size. I assume he is heading to the men’s bathroom, and I think nothing of it. I continue walking toward the woman’s bathroom door.
As I begin to enter the women’s restroom, I turn to see that he has walked past the entrance of the men’s restroom and is swiftly coming directly toward me. My eye immediately sees that the man has a 12 inch hunting knife in his right hand.
I panic, flying into the bathroom and slamming the door as hard as I can so he can’t get in. I push the full weight of my body against the door. I am trying to gain leverage, but my tennis shoes are slipping on the tile floor. I can hear the sounds of someone inside another stall.
I am pushing so hard against the door I have no strength to cry out, and I am quickly no match for him. He is at least six foot four, two hundred and eighty pounds of solid man. I am lucky to hold the door against him for thirty seconds before he plows over me, ripping the door right off the hinges. In the process, I am slammed to the floor between the bathroom stalls.
I scramble to get up, but he holds his hand over my mouth, pushing my head against the floor. He immediately begins to stab me in an upwards motion beneath my breast plate. He is stabbing me so quick and so deep I cannot even count them.
I also cannot feel a thing. Because he has me flat on my back, all my eyes can view is his hand swiftly moving in and out as he stabs me in the chest over and over.
There is no pain. I know that I am dying, but I feel nothing. I see no blood flying. There isn’t even any on the knife. It leaves my body shining, clean silver, and I am left saddened because of its size. I am completely aware that I am dying right now. There is no way I am taking this many stabs with this large of a knife and living.
I use my left hand to pry his fingers from over my mouth.
“Please stop stabbing me!” I begin to beg him.
He has no emotion. There is nothing. He is flat and hollow. He doesn’t even hear me or glance toward my face. He just smashes his hand down harder on my mouth continuing to stab me. It seems there must be hundreds; so many that I don’t understand why I am not dead yet. To him I am not a person. He feels predatory. Completely void of soul or reason. I am merely another woman slain. When he has had enough of me or I die, whichever comes first, he will move on to another girl.
Suddenly the other person opens the bathroom stall door. He immediately ceases the stabbing as he has been unaware there was anyone else in the bathroom. I don’t understand why she has not heard this whole time what was going on. His hand is still over my mouth as he looks up towards her. I think, no, don’t kill her. Please. But I know she’s next. He is done with me. I am already dead. She is next. I lay dying, and then I wake up.
Night terrors leave me with the full emotion of the scene. I woke up grieving my own death today; feeling a loss, physically exhausted. I had to write this out so I could give it away and go sleep. Coupled with the emotion, it takes time for images to fade, but even so, I shan’t let emotion make me fear the Dreamscape.