Children bring reminders of so many things.
I wonder what happens when one walks into the sea?
Let's face it, for many people the holiday season is a reminder of past and current emotional and/or physical abuse, missing family members, the gathering together of dysfunctional family, even abusers, alcohol consumption and more. So, how does one get through a day which may possibly have to be spent surrounded by dysfunctional behaviors? 1. … Continue reading Five Tips For Surviving Holiday Gatherings
As I was going through some boxes that have been packed up for some time, I came across a bundle of letters. There were nine of them. They were all dated throughout the year of 1993. I had just left college in Tennessee and moved to Washington State. I was in a foreign culture and … Continue reading Lost Letters
I am rising. So the people in my circle must be warriors. To be close to me one must contain and maintain the passion to fight for me just as I adhere myself close to you. I will go to battle to protect you. My army is small, yet impenetrable. Everyone outside of it is … Continue reading Does Your Tribe Consist Of Warriors?
It's been a long run with me being a parent. I was a young mother at twenty. The parenting skills I knew, I acquired from my own mother, and well, anyone who has read "Cult Child" knows that her parenting skills were sub par. There were things I hoped I would never do; like make … Continue reading Growth Sometimes Comes In Small Packages
I never felt like I belonged to my family. I lived their dynamic hovering on the outside looking in. Mom and sister always seemed to have secrets between them that I never seemed good enough to know. I didn't feel included or chosen. I was often told to go away, things were none of my … Continue reading Odd Girl Out
I've felt so much upheaval in the beginning of this year. the last month has been an up and down battle of struggles and survival. Things have shifted and changed multiple times. I've been forced in positions to face more parts of myself and accept the reality of others. My process feels unsure at times. … Continue reading On the Merry Go ‘Round
I stand still in my slippered feet. The girls are at the table coloring. My youngest son is visiting from college and is recalling a childhood moment with me. "You took me to watch The Grinch, remember?" He asks. His eyebrows are furrowed. "I did?" I am flipping through the years like micro film, trying … Continue reading A Moment In the Mind of a Mother With DID
A wise person once said, "There are three things you should never share; your relationship, your finances and your next move." It has become a mantra for my life. Years of being both vulnerable and held back at the wrong times have left me speculating my own judgment. Being alone is safer, away from the … Continue reading When Writing Out Trauma Is Crippling
This psychological test has been around for a while. I've taken it before. I've read the results. I've realized how immensely they've changed when I took this test again today. One aspect of this test that I like is that a parent can take it for their child, if the child is under eighteen. If … Continue reading My Love Languages