This past decade has been filled with many turns in the bumpy road I have traveled. I have pushed through deep depressions and sad realizations about this human existence. I have absorbed and grown my mindfulness and ability to receive and give love. I have waded through dissociative disorder peaks, organizing the many compartments of … Continue reading The Eye Of the Mother
What Buddy Cobb did to my sister was nothing less than abhorrent.
Child abuse survivors understand other child abuse survivors. We joke about off color things. We find the macabre fascinating and nerd out on unexpected subjects.
Let's face it, for many people the holiday season is a reminder of past and current emotional and/or physical abuse, missing family members, the gathering together of dysfunctional family, even abusers, alcohol consumption and more. So, how does one get through a day which may possibly have to be spent surrounded by dysfunctional behaviors? 1. … Continue reading Five Tips For Surviving Holiday Gatherings
Crisis. It happens all around us every day in some form, from the child who cries a lot, to the friend who is dying of a terminal illness, to war and news and everywhere we turn we're surrounded with crisis and news of crisis. We are often left feeling helpless, because as humans, our heart … Continue reading What Is Holding Space?
I am a faceless wanderer passing by unknown. There are dimensions and planets inside of me that have yet to be born. I'm a color wheel glanced at from distances. There is energy in my existence that is a sinkhole of depression, apathy and ego bending. I want out of this body and out of … Continue reading Faceless
It is said that we trauma survivors most often hold onto the past, ruminating over it in our minds and manifesting it in our behaviors and dysfunctions. Our past is a map of who we are. It is our personal history book. For many of us it is a manifesto of survival and the treacherous … Continue reading Do Trauma Survivors Really Hold Onto the Past?
If my mother were alive, and you were to ask her if she allowed her children to be abused or if she abused her children, her answer would most likely be (with Bible in hand), "Absolutely NOT!" She would then most likely go on to tell you what difficult children my siblings and I were … Continue reading Child Abusers Rarely Take Ownership of Their Crimes
Click the player below to listen to the two hour interview as I talk with Janaki of The (Not So) Sacred Radio Show about my childhood growing on in a bible based cult.
Yesterday while heading home from an appointment, my head was swirling. Things are changing in my life so quickly, and not all of it is "bad", per say. It's just that change in general takes some time for me to balance into. I'm a planner. I like lists. I need schedules and reminders. These changes … Continue reading A Startling Recovery
This video of "Sea Angel" is an audio poem from my poetry book and accompanying spoken word cd, "Dusted Shelves", which I published in 2011. This particular poem was written during a time when I was deeply depressed. I was in the cusp of writing out childhood trauma in "Cult Child", my memoir. I listen … Continue reading Sea Angel
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