My Mother Didn’t Want Me Calling Boys So I Wouldn’t Look Like a Slut

Mama spends the next hour telling me that men are shit. If I carry one thing into my adult life I better take this one, Mama rants on.   Her voice fades into the distance as it has come to do when she begins to lecture.

Born Crazy: A Video Poem

"You're crazy." How often have you heard this phrase thrown around, either flippantly, in jest or to victim blame someone who has overcome or is recovering from abuse? I heard this often as a post-cult teenager and well into my adult years. While I was actually dealing with the behavioral aftermath of being an extremely … Continue reading Born Crazy: A Video Poem

A History of Sam Fife’s Move of God Cult

Click here to explore The Cult.  SAM FIFE’S MOVE OF GOD CULT: Sam Fife was a former Baptist minister who started his ministry in Florida in the early 1960's.  He considered himself an apostle by way of a five-fold ministry concept based on the scripture in Ephesians 4:11 which states: So Christ himself gave the apostles, the … Continue reading A History of Sam Fife’s Move of God Cult

An Army Inside the One

What a cruel fate; these women who live inside me. What a scatter, a hush, a bustle of activity, a wish for silence as our skin is touched. What a tortured existence, the ending of the blissful discovery, when truth comes with the sunrise and lies disappear with the moon. What an angst to carry, … Continue reading An Army Inside the One

Sometimes We Hurt People

States of being aren't an excuse. They're just a mere explanation. I don't use mere to minimize them. I use it to not minimize the pain that alter states of being can cause. See, here's the thing about triggers. They create reactions. Immediately. No thinking, just conditioned movement, even if that conditioning is self centered. … Continue reading Sometimes We Hurt People