She Cannot Watch

Sometimes it's best for her not to watch, but instead, to hold space and energy which will be needed to help clean up the aftermath.

The Outhouse and a Sears Magazine

When I was a child growing up on Sam Fife's cult compound in Alaska, we did not have electricity or plumbing. As a result, we used the bathroom in chamber pots and outhouses. We also did not have toilet paper. Our toilet paper was often a Sears magazine with anything that wasn't "proper" for us … Continue reading The Outhouse and a Sears Magazine

Growth Sometimes Comes In Small Packages

It's been a long run with me being a parent. I was a young mother at twenty. The parenting skills I knew, I acquired from my own mother, and well, anyone who has read "Cult Child" knows that her parenting skills were sub par. There were things I hoped I would never do; like make … Continue reading Growth Sometimes Comes In Small Packages

Why You Shouldn’t Stand In Front Of a Runaway Train

When my eldest son was in his early teens, he loved his trick bikes and was quite good at jumping hills. We'd go out to the dirt bike jumps before the days of cemented skate parks. I was adamant about helmets, elbow pads and knee pads. "OMG, mom. I look stupid!" He'd say. He'd put … Continue reading Why You Shouldn’t Stand In Front Of a Runaway Train

Born Crazy: A Video Poem

"You're crazy." How often have you heard this phrase thrown around, either flippantly, in jest or to victim blame someone who has overcome or is recovering from abuse? I heard this often as a post-cult teenager and well into my adult years. While I was actually dealing with the behavioral aftermath of being an extremely … Continue reading Born Crazy: A Video Poem

This Day Always Leaves Lumps In the Throats of Some

I am recalled to this video piece, Throat Lumps, linked below, from my poetry book, Dusted Shelves, that on days which celebrate the essence of love, my heart sits silently with the unloved; the child who has never felt a hug, the ones neglected and the humans dejected by lack of connection or touch.  Don't … Continue reading This Day Always Leaves Lumps In the Throats of Some

What Happens To Good, Non-Religious People When They Die?

I asked a religious man once what happens when someone is a really good person, never hurts anyone, is kind and giving, but they don't believe in God? What happens to them when they die? Although I knew what the answer would most likely be, based on my own knowledge of religious doctrine, I was … Continue reading What Happens To Good, Non-Religious People When They Die?

My Journey into Disbelief

I was born into this world doctrine free. My father was an agnostic lover of physics, and while my mother was raised Pentecostal Christian, she neither practiced the religion nor incorporated religion into our home. However, when my father started working on military projects which kept him away from home for sometimes weeks, my mother … Continue reading My Journey into Disbelief