What does it feel like To be a ghost shunned; A soul un-grieved, Un-missed and unforgiven? In the hovering bowels Of mysticism where the Cynics hang their hats, She waits to be Acknowledged. In these times there Is a satisfaction in this Inter-dimensional reaction; When spirit feels the wishing Just like we did When we … Continue reading Un-Acknowledged
What the un-abused cannot understand is how a child can be raped and defiled, then smile at school the next day. What I can say as a sex and physical child abuse survivor is that a lot of us victims don't fully understand it either, except to explain that this is where fragmentation of the … Continue reading Abused Children Wear Multiple Faces
I wish I had one less tear for every time I heard the advice to stay more focused on the future than I do the past. Or one less ache for the unsolicited opinion that letting go is always best. I have spent many years contemplating this. I revert to the line in a journal … Continue reading When Childhood Gaps Haunt You
We are often encouraged to write out our trauma memories. As an author, I am definitely a supporter of this process and understand what it can do for the mind, body and spirit. Often I have spoken with trauma survivors who don't have any kind of outlet for the pain they are holding in. So … Continue reading Are You Afraid To Write Your Trauma?
I have spent the better part of my adult life studying to understand the relationship between religion and the human mind. Growing up conditioned and abused by religion, at times, I am told I hate religion because it abused me. In my book, "Cult Child", I travel into where my young mind existed. Even though … Continue reading Is Religion the Trauma Survivor’s Band-Aid®?
This piece of writing was scribed November 8, 2010 @ 5:55pm on a Notepad document which was found on February 1, 2017. When you understand that death is just dimensional time jumping, death may not be so frightening. Fear of the unknown holds you to needing a belief system. You cling to systematic rules … Continue reading Death’s Dimensional Jump
Am I the only MPD carrier who the movie, "Split", pissed off? From "Sybil" to "The Many Faces of Eve" to "The United States of Tara", the media has proven time and again how little research they've done on this impairment, and how much they enjoy glorifying it. Now, every other young person seems to … Continue reading “Split”: Glorifying MPD
Sometimes it's best for her not to watch, but instead, to hold space and energy which will be needed to help clean up the aftermath.
The Original One wavers, lazily sleeping, snacking and avoiding. Might I silence the fire, burning and buzzing in the spine? We run into the trails, avoiding the undergrowth of tree roots pushing their way through the ground. We grab at leafy branches. She’s an avalanche avoiding her own rubble. Sideways in the gradients lingering around … Continue reading Abstract Aberration
There's a duality existing when what we long for finally arrives. In that moment we are tasked with facing it. Now, I am going back inside. I am choosing this journey. While still somewhat tired from writing "Cult Child", I want to keep myself surfing this wave lest it all disappear. As I am writing … Continue reading A Poster Child for Shame
(written by M7 on March 16, 2007) "Sometimes, I crave intimacy so badly, that I cry myself to sleep hugging my pillow." She says, her face sad as she looks inside his liquid eyes wanting to touch him, but unable to reach her hand forward. "Every night I sleep next to a person who is … Continue reading Questionable Answers