Subliminal Suggestions In Religious Music

Now that my mind is free from falling prey to suggestive phrases, I recognize them more.

Child Abusers Rarely Take Ownership of Their Crimes

If my mother were alive, and you were to ask her if she allowed her children to be abused or if she abused her children, her answer would most likely be (with Bible in hand), "Absolutely NOT!" She would then most likely go on to tell you what difficult children my siblings and I were … Continue reading Child Abusers Rarely Take Ownership of Their Crimes

Sea Angel

This video of "Sea Angel" is an audio poem from my poetry book and accompanying spoken word cd, "Dusted Shelves", which I published in 2011. This particular poem was written during a time when I was deeply depressed. I was in the cusp of writing out childhood trauma in "Cult Child", my memoir. I listen … Continue reading Sea Angel

I Don’t Have a Boyfriend, and Apparently That’s My Fault

A male friend told me that I don't have a boyfriend because I don't want one. "What does that even mean?" I asked. He said "You want too much." It left me perplexed. How is that possible? How can I ever want "too much" when it comes to the peace and comfort of my own existence. … Continue reading I Don’t Have a Boyfriend, and Apparently That’s My Fault

I Received a Beautiful Award!

Once a Victim Now a Survivor Award I'm really honored to be payed forward the "Once a Victim Now a Survivor Award". Thank you so much, Darque Thoughts I appreciate everyone who takes the time to read my emotional vomiting. If one reader feels less alone, then all the retching is worth it. Thank you … Continue reading I Received a Beautiful Award!

Yesterday Was Her Birthday, and It Never Crossed My Mind

Yesterday was her birthday, and it never crossed mine or my sister's minds. We are just miles from her grave and feel no urge to go and visit it. We are closed off now. She is ashes to ashes, dust to dust, cycled back into the dark matter. Did she come from there, meant to return to the nothingness that she became after Sam Fife's Move of God cult took control of her mind?

The Hiding Place (“Cult Child” excerpt)

     "Brother Coblin announces at service one night that we’re all going to get to watch a movie called The Hiding Place. It’s about a woman named Corrie Ten Boom, a Jew who was in the concentration camps during World War II. I’m excited to get to watch a real life movie. I think … Continue reading The Hiding Place (“Cult Child” excerpt)