Collage art is a medium which I feel most in harmony with. For me, it’s akin to throwing runes and letting the story emerge on its own.
I picked up some outdated pocket planners from Half Price Books to up-cycle into new books. Below is a time-lapse video of my first collage creation in 2020 which has emerged thus far, a summary of everything I understand about a family story not yet fully told.
The process of making this book was approximately ten hours of sporadic creating over time. There are always breaks needed to keep myself balanced. I follow my body’s signals. Letting memory emerge can be a slow process. I take the time to let my subconscious guide me.
I have a painting I’ve been trying to finish since 2012. It can be a year or so before I create new art. It sits in my eye’s view. It is a depiction of a lucid dissociative memory. It is at least 60% done. Every time I begin to go to it, I stop unconsciously. I just can’t muster up the interest to finish it. The emotion won’t come, not the same emotion which was there when I started it. So, I wait.
I say to myself, “Ok. It isn’t time yet.”
This is my process of creating.
Digging into memory is like mining in a deep and dangerous tunnel system. It has to be done safely and with self-care in the forefront of importance.
While you will watch a short five minutes below, for me, it is hours of music and madness, glue and floating words condensed into a representation of glued together pieces from a cult childhood that left images in my cellular memory which tend to have a mind of their own.
When I create art it is usually in random spaces of time surrounding emotional overflow which needs to be expelled. Free flow ability is an important element for me to be able to live a self-healthy lifestyle.
When a local woman came across my art and contacted me, she told me that she found my recurring theme of the anime warrior compelling in regards to her child, who has struggled with personal mental situations. As the mother shared why she wanted me to do a piece for her teenager, I could relate both as a mother myself and as the once raging teenager.
I was thrilled to find out that the teenager also loves anime, color and is sensitive to the world. I was even more excited when mom gave me creative freedom.
I really love coding pieces with positive elements and energy. There are patterns and codes in old sketches, in new paintings and even in old journals. This piece is filled with strength and self worth to be passed on to a young person who is struggling inside just like I did and still do.
I don’t do many pieces for others, so when I have the opportunity to do so, I feel humbled and honored. This one flowed and spilled out. The process was cathartic. I finished it feeling re-empowered in parts of myself.
I am an advent child, standing in the ruins of a forgotten city. I cherish everything.
8 x 10 stretched canvas
Elements: acrylic, metallic oil acrylic and velvet
“A Progression from the 50’s to the 70’s” – an interactive, mixed media piece created to donate for a fundraising raffle. The base represents the ritualistic use of the checkered floor / secret mind control societies / using sex and pinups to sell product / starting wars while the people scream for peace / dropping bombs like confetti
“Ghosts Of the Forest” / acrylic on 11×14 canvas / artist Vennie Kocsis / 2015
While taking a walk in the woods on Monday, light patterns revealed faces and figures in the forest ground. Memories took on a mind of their own tonight as ghosts flowed from my soul. Letting them go with a brush, a canvas and a pen.
Photography is just as much an expression for me as anything I create. Sometimes my emotion emerges in this way. I don’t want to share too much about my own emotion during the creative process so that viewers can observe from your own perspective. I most often never end up having a plan but just moving in spacial presence with the image as I move with it. My editing process is ruled by emotion, most often I am lucid, discarding multiple photos for that one which speaks to me directly. I don’t create images with other people viewing them in mind. Only when I write does the process of interactive connectivity with my reader become present in me. With art and photography it’s a different process. It’s me and whatever needs to purge, and I enjoy giving it away for however someone wants to interpret it.
Girl With a Gun Series # 121 started tonight. I’ll see where she leads. I’m unsure of “who” is taking the lead on this one. But I do have an inkling of where it is going and why. #outlets