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In the Silence

Image • Posted on October 6, 2014 by Vennie Kocsis • in Poetry, States of Being • Tagged abuse survivor, Alters, art, black moon, cult child, digital art, dissociative identity disorder, empath, Knowing, memories, moon, poetry, protected, religious abuse, ritual abuse, shifts, thriver, vennie kocsis, venniekocsis • 7 Comments

About Vennie Kocsishttps://venniekocsis.wordpress.comI am the author of "Cult Child", a memoir detailing my abusive childhood growing up in Sam Fife's Move of God cult. I am a poet, artist, advocate and pedophile hunter. If you know, then you know. MILAB EMPATH HYBRID HAARP POKERFLATS

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7 thoughts on “In the Silence”

ccchanel41 says:

October 6, 2014 at 2:37 am

OMG breathtaking, sad, beautiful…all at once

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- Vennie Kocsis says:
  
  October 6, 2014 at 12:47 pm
  
  Thank you beautiful
  
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manyofus1980 says:

October 18, 2014 at 4:00 am

Amazing ❤ so beautiful xx

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- Vennie Kocsis says:
  
  October 24, 2014 at 11:23 am
  
  Thank you. 😘
  
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iamcayenne says:

November 26, 2014 at 9:38 am

…We are running to keep the lungs open enough to hold the weeping….wow……scary..and sad

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- Vennie Kocsis says:
  
  November 26, 2014 at 5:15 pm
  
  No fear. Healthy self love is the potion. Sadness… Now that human emotion is a hard one for me to escape at times.
  
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  - iamcayenne says:
    
    November 27, 2014 at 9:40 am
    
    Hmmm…
    
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This moon last night spoke to me. She was pure, close and filled with love. She said, “You keep fighting, moon child. You are on the side of Light.” I lifted my hands and thanked her for her natural confirmation. We are shedding Light into the darkest of places. I stand valiant in my place. There is no weapon against me which can ever prosper in the realm of Truth. I will morph into my next cycle living my best life while unfolding my ultimate purpose. Oh, what a great time to feel so strong. 💫⚔️

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Shatters are beautiful. They are a reminder that our reflection cannot be erased. We make ourselves into art and color, and use the cracks to hold the pieces of a heart glued back together with liquid strands by string hands. I cannot seal off seeping that oozes like minuscule tsunamis. We gently cleanse the wounds and aftermath again and again. We replant. Our gardens eventually grow more lush with our experiences. This is the way of the wounded warrior living in a home built solely of themselves. ⚔️ @venniekocsis #writing #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #writersofig #writers #amwriting #pnw #authorsofinstagram #author #survivorvoices #cultchild

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“My back is no longer bent. I am no longer living in my shadow self. I was born into this world for spiritual war. The strongest souls can survive the horror; take the bruises and the blows and still grow tall and powerful enough to fight back. We trained through dimensions for this shit. We are bursting out; a powerful force; a storm like never seen before. We are rising so high that everything not of love is sinking into the denseness. We have rendered you defenseless against our shields. We are coming to save those children. It is time for your revealing. We are armed with weapons, created from our scars. We have built a fortress so strong no force can bend it, and it is dividing you; sequestering you away from the souls you have controlled for centuries.” #survivorvoices #survivorculture #freedomofmind #warrior #empath #survivorarmy #writersofinstagram #writer #writerscommunity #writers #author #authorsofinstagram #venniekocsis #cultchild #newmoon #moon #witch #witchesofinstagram #naturalwitch #bornthisway #shadowhunters #shadow #shadowself

When a dancing cloud greets you with the moon, dance back. Soak it in. Let the moon magic heal and lift you beyond the basic banter of life and into the beautiful parts of your heart. My love is guaranteed, and that includes me. 💞⚔️💞

Yeah, tho I walk through the valley of the shadows of death I fear no evil, for I am with me. My strength and my love, they comfort me. I prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies and anoint my own table with oil. My cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy show follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in my own house forever and ever. 💞⚔️💞 #venniekocsis #survivorvoices #survivorculture #strengthquotes #strength #empoweredwomen #empowered #selflove #youareenough

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